Nachricht Nummer : 474 Übertragungszeit : 3 min 36 sec Nachricht von : WAM@ZAMIR-ZG.ztn.zer.de (Wam) Betrifft : Zagreb Diary on 13 April, 1994 Kopienempfänger : /REG/NEWS/DIARY/WAM, /APC/YUGO/ANTIWAR, /CL/EUROPA/BALKAN, /SOC/CULTURE/BOSNA-HERZGVNA, /SOC/CULTURE/CROATIA, /SOC/CULTURE/YUGOSLAVIA Erstellungsdatum : 15.04.1994 16:40:00 S+2 Zagreb Diary 13 April, 1994 Dobar dan, I planned to go back to Pakrac today, but as always plans and reality are not always connected. Our networks (ZaMir) needed some extra work and half of the day I was fighting with computers to get everything working at least a bit and hoping that it will stay working for the time that I am gone from Zagreb. Vesna has a hard time finding a new office for ARKzin, she is finishing the new issue but than she has to move out of the place she is now in. The new place she found this week unfortunately turned out to be not available. The women who owns the place told that she became afraid for the political consequences after she had read some of the former issues of ARKzin. Although ARKzin is printed and distributed by a state printer and state distributor it is still one of the opposition newspapers which don't always completely follows the state political lines, often the oppose to it to be honest. One of the problems f.e. is that there are guidelines given how certain things should be describe in the media. An example is f.e. that the state of Serbian Krajina, the parts of Croatia which are not under the control of the Croatian government, but under the control of the mostly Serbian government in Knin, "loosely" connected with the government in Serbia (they use the same schoolbooks, the same money and all products are coming from there), should always be referred to as "so-called" or "self-declaimed". And that's just a small example. Further on I had the time to answer piles of messages and letters which were waiting for me for weeks, some times I really hope that I could split myself into at least 5 or 6 different persons to be able to do all the work which I am suppose to do. I am ashamed about myself that I have not more energy, but I am human. I also was able to do some reading of older material on the electronic nets. Today I was especially interested to read material which was distributed on the Jugo mailing list. That is a list with a lot of anonymous and basically filled with stories which are some how promoting or at least showing other type of news than most of the other newsgroups on the net. I know that true is not true and that it doesn't really matters if it is true or not. This are voices which can explain me a lot from the way of thinking on the "other side" of Pakrac. The most of the world has been talking f.e. about the Anna Frank from Sarajevo, called Zlatka. Her diary is printed some months ago and see has been saying all the hot shots around the world. On the Jugo mailing list I found a description how Zlatka stories was in no way simular with Anna Frank's, not only since Anna died and Zlatka got the possibility to get out of Sarajevo thanks to her diary. But more because of the fact that Anna wrote her diary as a little girl without the big media and the world reading over her shoulder in mind and Zlatka story and diary was considered as a piece of propaganda of the BiH government. As said you can have different of opinions and people will have, I am not saying that the above opinion is right, neither would I say that it is wrong. What I know is that some people think that way and that I must respect their opinion if I want to work with them. The bombarding of the tanks around Gorazde is another example. Most of the world has said this was a good thing to do, I know even without talking to anybody that a lot of people in the Serbian part of Pakrac have other ideas about this. I like to be neutral and still having my own opinion. Something which I like to discuss with friends but not with the people I work with, it makes not sense to have political discussions on the front-line, since in the end I always will be wrong,. This was almost the hardest thing to explain the Catholic priest in Pakrac the other week, walking around knowing things which you shouldn't know, knowing the arguments from this and the other side and trying to figure out not who is right and who is wrong but how to combine this ideas and thoughts in the future. Trying to explain that in some cases I know the guy who shot and the guy who get shot. I was coming to the priest in the hope he understand what kind of pressure that gives in a persons head. By now I know that I have to get finish with myself about those things. Everybody it doesn't matter where is somehow involved in sides, everybody has his or her good and bad side in this story. That is something they never ever learn on school, to try to be neutral. Or rather not really being neutral, but at least to respect all sides of the story. After fighting with my mind and the computers I went with Zoran to join a few foreign journalists to discuss the political situation in Croatia with them. The big changes which are happening in the political field at the moment in Croatia again mobilised the journalists and they like to figure out what really happened. So for a few hours we were abstractly discussing the policy of HDZ and the other parties, at such moment I am only thinking about the people I know in Pakrac, which weren't involved in all of this, but had and still have to pay the bill. 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